I Found My Goddess in My Wiry White Hairs
First Listed February 5, 2011
I wrote this blog post a few months ago at Goddess Leonie’s Goddess Circle (affiliate link) that I am a member of. I’ve been wanting to start a conversation about the whole gray hair thing so I figured I’d start with this post. 
Yes, those are my Goddess Grays below (that’s what I’m calling them), in that section where I have a patch of them. Pretty wild! It’s amazing what sort of emotions can surface when you see lots of grays begin to blossom. It’s a true test, for me, to discover the strength of my inner being.
Inhale~Enjoy~Exhale,
Gina
I had an Aha moment yesterday morning and wanted to share……
I showered and was drying my hair…….well, first let me give you a little history….I’ll try to keep this short .
I’m a hairstylist and I’m retiring my shears as of Sept. 30th. One of the many reasons I’m taking a break from this career is the chemicals. Besides not wanting to breathe in hair spray anymore, I’ve been finding it very hard for the past year or so to apply color on my clients’ heads due to the chemicals I know that are in there – (by finding it hard I mean I do apply it, just inside I shudder a bit bc I’m knowingly putting chemicals that aren’t good for us on my client’s head…..and there is no judgement here by me to those who do color your hair……..just so you know…….we all have choices and it’s everyone’s right to choose what’s best for them- and who knows-I may even decide to color again at some point 
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Anyway, I haven’t colored my hair in over a year. I love my natural color and my hair and scalp have been in such great shape since I haven’t colored my hair. I’m leaning toward not coloring at all (except maybe possibly a few highlights bc the color doesn’t touch your scalp)……..even when I get a lot more white hairs (mine are coming in really snow white). Now I don’t have a lot of them, but there is quite a few on top and especially when my hair parts on the right, you can see this little patch of white hairs popping out.
So back to my story……yesterday morning, as I’m drying my hair, my hair wanted to part on the right, so I let it. It parted right where that white patch is. After my hair was all dried, I noticed that white patch……I leaned in toward the mirror to take a good look at it, and I had a flash of insight………something whispered to me……..those white hairs represent the goddess in you……….the wisdom that you carry within from your journey through your life experiences………..respect them as they will empower you to share your gifts with others………
I then looked at my white streak again, and then my eyes, and I saw a sparkle, like a glimmer of light that sparked in my eyes for a quick second and I loved it……I love those white hairs, my white highlight streak……..
Me thinks me is going to let it be and see how the salt naturally unfolds throughout the pepper…………
Gina
Olivera Milojkovic on Tue, 8th Feb 2011 8:35 pm
Dear Gina,
At some point on my spiritual journey of awakening I also felt the need to stop coloring my hair because of all the chemicals. I felt just like you described, very concerned about the chemicals that were going into my scalp. So, I decided that was it, no more coloring and I grew out all my gray (I had a lot more than you). I kept my hair in a pony tail most of the time and had it cut often. I have to say it wasn’t very pretty but I felt I was doing something very healthy, I felt extremely free and natural….I really loved those grays, really. Some years past and one day I looked into the mirror and felt that the outside Olivera did not match with the inside Olivera… I didn’t know exactly what to do and I debated the issue with myself for a long time. I finally decided the following: I had changed my eating habits from meat eater to vegitarian to vetan, changed my outlook on life, changed so many other things that I concluded coloring my hair wouln’t be that bad. So now I choose very carefully what I put on my hair and still color my hair the regular way until I find a better and healthier way. I do feel that I match now and love it, so I just need to find a way to color the grays a healthier way. (working on it, because it’s a process just like all the other things in life).
Enjoy every single one of your grays because they ARE the manifestation of all the beautiful lessons you’ve learned and now have to share.