Chanting to Stay Grounded

Anxiety Busting Challenge ~ Day 14

Hola sweetloves! Today is day 14 of the Anxiety Busting Challenge and I’m honored to share with you the magical and creative, Allurynn.

Allurynn shares her story of challenges along her life path and how her Golden Nugget helps her to move forward and through anxiety so she can keep on creating and sharing her magic with the world. Enjoy!

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Chanting To Stay Grounded by Allurynn

Anxiety Story 

I’m sure there are many types of anxiety disorders out there, for me it manifested through my birth family dynamics and it’s much to do with worry.  I grew up with anxiety and worry around me all the time.  Later in life, through some Inner Child work, I realized that sometime in my early childhood I began to believe I couldn’t count on or trust anyone, (including my own mother), to take care of me; and so, I never learned to trust.

Most importantly fully trusting the Universe, I had to be in control to feel safe. I lacked trust in that everything will be okay and is as it should be.  Trust that I (and those I love) will be taken care of, be protected and safe, no matter what the situation.  I saw this so clearly midyear 2011 when I was told that I potentially would be laid off of my “day job”.

My anxiety took over and I plummeted into fear.  My own creative entrepreneur business was in no way capable of producing enough income that I could walk away from my “day job”.  We had lost our ranch to foreclose 9 months earlier, and were just getting back on our feet.  The worry and anxiety just escalated as I tried to look for alternate work, where there was none to be found especially for someone that has been a jewelry bench worker for 13 years; my medical training was so out of practice there was no way I could go back to my previous career.  I resorted to taking a minimum wage job, only to realize by the time I paid for my little one to go to daycare, while I worked, the income would be a wash, it would not be worth the time.

All of that came crashing down on me, and from there it extended to revisiting all the hardships and setbacks we’ve been through in the past few years.  Anxiety had won again and I was spiraling down into depression.

After a couple of days of crying and feeling lost, I started to sit quietly and listen.  I prayed for guidance and it came.  It came in signs all around me, so I listened and learned.  My biggest lessons were that all is as it should be and all is well, really it is.  I came across audios from other creative entrepreneurs that had dealt with anxiety, fear and lack of trust.   What I heard the loudest was trust in love.  That no matter what our circumstances may be, we are here to experience unconditional love, for ourselves and others, that love transforms.  I heard over and over again how transforming Self-love can be, accepting ourselves as being perfect just the way we are no matter our situations or circumstances.   I have tried many techniques for helping me get through my anxiety attacks, but only recently found something that works wherever and whenever I need it.

Golden Nugget

I used the words I heard about love and created a mantra/prayer that I chant whenever I feel the panic rising and I do mean feel.  My heartbeat races and an overwhelming feeling comes over me, where I can’t stand being in my own skin.  Chanting helps me gain my ground again, keeps me grounded despite the fact that my mind wants to panic and spiral down in the grips of anxiety and fear. Now, I’m not saying it was or has been easy for me to do this, nor that it is the cure all cos’ I’m still learning to cope.  But it was a turning point for me.

When I exhausted every way possible to make a difference, when there wasn’t anything more I could do to avoid losing my job and having a major financial set back, I let go and I learned to trust in love and let go of fear. I found my way back to using my essential oils and herbs to clear my energy and lift my spirit as I trusted all would be well and let it go.

We all have that negative talk that can lead us down the path to fear and anxiety, chanting has helped me put a stop to it and bring me back to Love, the moment it starts. In doing so things shifted, I was open to seeing the small miracles that were happening around us, shifting our circumstances and helping us move through it.

I never thought I would ever be at peace with my anxiety, giving into worry and anxiety is all I knew.  But I have come to see that being safe, protected and taken care of doesn’t mean that crap isn’t ever going to happen to me, it just means that when it does happen, I can handle it. I learned that when crap happens and it will HAPPEN, that instead of asking why me, ask what lesson am I being taught so I can learn it and move through it. Remembering, I will never be given anything that will break me no matter how bad it is, and trust me I’ve lived through bad, from abuse, to being homeless, to financial distress and guess what, I did live through it.  Sometimes, in the mists of crap happening we forget how strong we really are.

Now I know when crap happens, I can resort to the tools I carry in my medicine bag, I can take actions to prevent it or shift it and then accept that it’s the best I can do, and let it go; remembering all is as it should be. Learn my lessons and continue to walk in my power; never forgetting my golden nugget; chanting my mantra, as it is the best tool I found that I can resort to at the spur of the moment to bring me back to Love; because now I know Love will empower me. I know through love I will transform my anxiety so that it doesn’t cripple me but helps me create breakthroughs where love and light can come to me.

The Challenge

My challenge for you is to find a prayer or mantra that you can resort to when you feel in the grips of anxiety.  Remember to chant it when you feel anxiety taking over, I promise it will snap you out of it, and ground you, bringing you back to Love and letting go of fear; alllowing you to be open to the miracles that are all around us everyday.  Add it to your medicine bag along with the rest of the tools that help you continue to walk in your power ♥

Allurynn has been on her magickal Goddess journey for many years now; following the rhythms and cycles of the Moon and our Mother Earth.  Nature not only inspires her, but it also feeds her soul, like the creation of her art does.  Creations by Moonlight is a place where she can share her passion and love of handcrafted items to inspire, honor and adorn the Goddess in every woman, be it through her jewelry or unique treasures.  Her art is a reflection of her own spirituality and vision.  She allows her inner Goddess to reflect love and joy through her paintings and paper art and through her jewelry she allows the Goddess within to honor the Goddess in every woman.

You can check out her creations at http://CreationsbyMoonlight.etsy.com/

image by softestthing’s via flickr

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